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Tonight is the Night
A change of pace for me in this one.
Oh so nervous, I stand rocking from foot to foot a little with my body restless and my mind trying to focus on something to calm myself down. Tonight is the night I meet him for the first time.
It seems so long ago now that just out of curiosity I was playing around on-line looking for some distraction. After a few sites and some random searching I found a home it seemed, full of friendly people and chats that made me laugh and feel things I thought were long gone. As I stand on the darkened street, watching the folks wrapped up against the cold hurrying past, the Christmas lights of the main streets giving the world a warm glow.
Another flick of my eyes to my watch, it is amazing just how slow time can move, when it has a mind to torment you. Of course I have already convinced myself he won’t show up anyway, “why would he?” my brain asks even as my heart is still racing, hoping that he will. Nervous anyway just in case I am not what he expects or fall short somehow of his expectations. Never once does my mind assume I will not like him or somehow feel let down.
I close my eyes and breathe, trying to look relaxed and let my thoughts run over the multitude of things we have said to each other. The laughter we have shared over the years as we gradually moved from strangers to friends to....well I guess that is what tonight is about. Is there further that this relationship can go? Should it? Will we both want more? Will he want me? So many questions really yet to be answered.
In many ways the easier road would have been a meeting with someone else, someone not so clever or witty or appealing. A quick one off, but that’s not me. I’m not looking for love, but a connection with a lover. A lover who is a friend, an affair that combines laughter with sex, compassion with lust, joy with passion.
I hear the chimes ring out to mark the coming of the hour, the time has arrived and I feel a soft brush against my arm. I jolt a little, open my eyes and there he is, smiling as if he knows just what I am thinking and knows just how that feels. In that moment I want nothing more than to feel his lips on mine, knowing that no matter what happens later we will still part as friends and hopefully so much more.
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| November 20, 2010, 16:38 |
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newbie1011
50 / female
The Shore, New Jersey, US
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Re: Tonight is the Night
Wow. I think that's exactly how most of us have felt that have met someone on-line at our first meeting.
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| November 20, 2010, 16:55 |
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kamarel
48 / male
Southfield, Michigan, US
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Re: Tonight is the Night
Nice, Josie. Nothing like capturing inner turmoil. I love stories of the thought processes and emotions.
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| November 20, 2010, 17:39 |
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Re: Tonight is the Night
Thanks guys, the above is certainly lacing is sex, but I hoped it would resonate with some people
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| November 20, 2010, 21:41 |
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